Hello everyone. It has been a week and two days since my mother-in-law passed unexpectedly and tragically away. I will not share details for personal reasons, but I will say that it has been a difficult time. Then two days after we buried her, her sister passed away unexpectedly as well. It has been a real hard time for Derrick's side of the family. In the midst of that I have had some serious health problems. I was standing for hours during the visitation, and I began to have female issues. If you are a consistent reader, you will know that I have anemia. Well, I began to hemorrhage which led to emergency care for this and many doctor's appointments and female biopsies.
To say Life is LIFING is TRUTH here in this season of my life.
I have said that saying for years... way before I knew it was coined a modern slang.
According to google...
Meaning of “Life is Lifing”
“Life is lifing” is a modern slang phrase that means life is actively happening — often in intense, unpredictable, or overwhelming ways — and you’re fully experiencing it, whether it’s joyful, chaotic, or challenging.
I will say I feel the chaotic and challenging part ever so much right now.
I have to have a hysterectomy and I am terrified. I will be down for quite a bit and to be honest, my anxiety is through the roof. I know I try hard to keep this space positive, uplifting, joyful and encouraging. I like to post all our adventures and special memories. BUT THIS SEASON (look at my blog title) is different. All the plans I had for this spring and summer seem to be floating away. My new part time job has been put on the back burner because I can't even stand for long periods, walk down the block, or lift anything heavy because of my current hemorrhaging. My iron is dangerously low, so my breathing is labored by the simplest of tasks and my heart begins to pound just taking a shower.
So, while I do like to keep my blog drama and "woe is me" free; this season I am rolling into is not void of that. We will have to roll into this next season and embrace it. I am sharing here because this is what my life looks like right now. I love sharing the good memories and all my fun goals BUT life is taking me on a different path. I will try not to share much about it all on the blog and my blog posts may seem a tad less interesting but for my sanity, comfort, and only form of creativity I will keep on posting as I can.
With love,
Chrissy T
36 comments:
Oh I am so sorry you are going through such a rough patch. I will certainly add you to my daily prayer list.
Oh Chrissy, I'm sorry you are dealing with this. I'll be praying for you.
I've been MIA for a bit and had no idea you had so much going one. First off, I'm sorry for your loss. Secondly, I'm sorry for your health issues. As you come to mind, I will lift you in prayer. Hugs, my friend!
Dear dear Chrissy, I knew about the loss of your mother-in-law and then for your husband to also lose his aunt so soon after h is mom...I am so sorry. And now with your current health issues you really are having a lot to deal with. I will be praying . Sending love and prayers for you and your family.
Continuing prayers, dear Chrissy.
Oh Chrissy, I am praying for healing for you and for calm and peace from the Holy Spirit to fill you with peace and calm. Your reaction is very understandable. We know prayer is powerful. Be well my friend, and keep posting as you can.
I am very sorry to read of your losses Chrissie - both your Mum in law & her sister in a couple of days of each other. So sad. Also sorry to read of your health issues but I have recently helped a friend who underwent a hysterectomy & she says it is the best thing as she no longer has the ongoing issues that she suffered with for many years. So I will pray that yours will be straight forward & you will make a good recovery & bounce back quickly. Take care Chrissie. xx
I'm so sorry to hear of the losses in your family and also the health issues you yourself are going through. It seems that some families have more than their fair share of things sent to try them on occasions. Thinking of you at this time.
Oh gosh Chrissy, I sure am sorry for everything going on with your family and your own personal health issues. Prayers and hugs it all goes well. Janice
I am so sorry! It does sound rough on your and Derrick's family. Sending love and hugs. Female issues are no fun at all and yours sound truly awful. I am so sorry about the hysterectomy, I hope you make a speedy recovery. Thank you for sharing.
Guess what, Chrissy. Your blog is your spot. And I hope you feel it is a safe spot to share real-life, what you are feeling, whether it is joy or -- as of now -- being anxious and frightened. Hey, don't you think every single one of us would be, too? That's very scary on a good day and add to the fact that you've experienced so much loss so recently and are so darned tired for every good reason in the world, you need your "spot." I am quite sure you will be well supported by your community. The main thing now is to "support yourself" in whatever way works for you. If it is writing here, yay. If it is taking a break, we'll get it. Things happen to all of us -- I often say "It's my turn." And we don't like it when it's our turn, because it's downright frightening at times and anxiety producing often. But we're strong women. We take a deep breath, slow down and regroup. Ask for help. (I'm bad at this but I'm learning.) People will happily pay it forward (or pay back!). You are in charge of you, even if things feel out of control. I'm so sorry you have to go through this at any time -- and now is even harder. But you've got this. Don't forget that.
May God be with you, for He said I will NEVER LEAVE THEE NOR FORSAKE THEE.
Put your hand in His. He is there in it all. Prayer hugs, Shaz in Oz. X
Oh my dear sweet Friend! Sending out lots of prayers and love to you. I had the same issue when I was 38 yrs old. I had gone through lots of fertility stuff to get our Annie. I think that exacerbated already existing issues. I had to go the ER for hemmorhaging too. And I got the news I needed a hysterectomy and I was so worried about what that meant at still such a young age. They had to take everything except my ovaries. The healing took several weeks, but I will tell you it is THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE! Once I healed up I felt like a new person with a new lease on life. My hormone issues stopped, my anemia issues stopped, I didn't such crazy mood swings anymore, I didn't have to deal with any bleeding or female products anymore. I felt free!! I pray that you will have a similar situation and that maybe my story will give you some confidence in this choice and it will bring a wonderful outcome. Again, prayers and and love to you all and my continued sympathies for your family. I hope you're able to have a very blessed Mother's Day. 🙏🏻💗
Chrissy, this is not an easy, fun or uplifting time in your life, so it only stands to reason that your blog posts might not be super cheery. However, they'll be real, authentic and hopefully an outlet for you...and a place where you can find strength and community from people who will support you. Sending you prayers and hoping you can get back to all your wonderful summer plans soon. ❤️
Oh Chrissy, I can't even imagine all you have been going through. Just one loss is so hard for a family and your heart to take. Another one in the same family, my heart is so sad for you. I am so very sorry for your health challenges too. I will pray pray pray for you. For your upcoming surgery, for your day to day challenges with walking, lifting, anything, and I will pray for your recovery. Jesus is in this - what must feel like one big mess - he is right there carrying you. I will pray you feel His peace.
Oh my goodness, I am so sorry to read this! My thoughts and prayers go out to your whole family. I had a hysterectomy in 2020 because I had uterine fibroids that caused major bleeding/issues and as scared as I was it was THE BEST decision ever. I did blog about it-- not sure if reading about someone else's experience will help or not... but it's there if you want it. https://www.myslicesoflife.com/2020/01/all-is-better-we-think-my-health-saga.html
OH Chrissy, I knew I was missing seeing your posts, but I thought it was just me not staying caught up. You have really been on a difficult journey here lately, and I am praying for you and your husband's familly and all that you are going through physically. I had some similar issues when I was in my late 40's, and when I was 50 I had to have a complete hysterectomy due to a very large fibroid. Thankfully those are usually benign, but they definitely can make life miserable. I must say, however, that having the surgery was the best thing I could do, and I am very thankful that I did. I will definitely be praying for you as you go through this. God is with you, and HE will NEVER leave you nor forsake you! You can totally rely on Him to carry you through whatever lies ahead. We will be praying. Keep us updated as you are able. (((HUGS)))
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Thanks, Linda!
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Thank you! I appreciate your prayers! That is encouraging to read!
Yes, that is true! It has been a rough patch!!!! Thank you!
Thank you Janice
Thank you so much for the love and hugs!!!!
Thank thank thank you for such wonderful encouragement!!!
Carrie,
I soooo appreciate this encouragement. Thank you for sharing with me!!! It helps me have some peace of mind!!!
Thank you so much, Kim.
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Thank you so much for sharing this. I went and read all of the posts related!
Thank you so much!!!! I miss posting much but all in good time. I am glad to read you had one as well and it went good. That gives me encouragement.
That poetry saying is beautiful. And I love the "storm" quote too. I'm so sorry you had some health issues at the visitation. That must have been very hard for you standing for so long. I hope you are feeling better, my friend. Take care.
Oh dear Chrissy, I am so sorry to read of all you are going through, losing your mother in law and her sister so close together, such a difficult time! And then to have the health issues on top of everything! Please know that you are in my prayers, and we know that our God is able to bring healing and relief to the issues you are facing! Praying for you dear friend!
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