When Life is "Lifing!"

Hello everyone. It has been a week and two days since my mother-in-law passed unexpectedly and tragically away. I will not share details for personal reasons, but I will say that it has been a difficult time. Then two days after we buried her, her sister passed away unexpectedly as well. It has been a real hard time for Derrick's side of the family. In the midst of that I have had some serious health problems. I was standing for hours during the visitation, and I began to have female issues. If you are a consistent reader, you will know that I have anemia. Well, I began to hemorrhage which led to emergency care for this and many doctor's appointments and female biopsies. 

To say Life is LIFING is TRUTH here in this season of my life.

I have said that saying for years... way before I knew it was coined a modern slang. 

According to google...

Meaning of “Life is Lifing”

“Life is lifing” is a modern slang phrase that means life is actively happening — often in intense, unpredictable, or overwhelming ways — and you’re fully experiencing it, whether it’s joyful, chaotic, or challenging.

I will say I feel the chaotic and challenging part ever so much right now. 

I have to have a hysterectomy and I am terrified. I will be down for quite a bit and to be honest, my anxiety is through the roof. I know I try hard to keep this space positive, uplifting, joyful and encouraging. I like to post all our adventures and special memories. BUT THIS SEASON (look at my blog title) is different. All the plans I had for this spring and summer seem to be floating away. My new part time job has been put on the back burner because I can't even stand for long periods, walk down the block, or lift anything heavy because of my current hemorrhaging. My iron is dangerously low, so my breathing is labored by the simplest of tasks and my heart begins to pound just taking a shower. 

So, while I do like to keep my blog drama and "woe is me" free; this season I am rolling into is not void of that. We will have to roll into this next season and embrace it. I am sharing here because this is what my life looks like right now. I love sharing the good memories and all my fun goals BUT life is taking me on a different path. I will try not to share much about it all on the blog and my blog posts may seem a tad less interesting but for my sanity, comfort, and only form of creativity I will keep on posting as I can. 

With love,

Chrissy T